Days 35 & 36

Days 35 & 36

It's 9:30 pm, and I'm going to bed after I write this. Really. That is a big deal for me since night time is usually when I come alive. But too tired for that.

I'm really tired. I think I was just emotional today and my fuse was a little shorter with starfish. We actually did well this morning, but later into the afternoon I got pretty sad and tired. We had a family outing this morning (went to a consignment baby sale- baby stuff, not babies for sale; ate at Wendy's; went to Kroger & the gas station) big times. The only protein I can really say Ethan has eaten in the last year is Wendy's chicken nuggets. I feel like I should be embarassed to say that, but I'm not. I will say he has eaten ground beef before at home. So no shame, we frequent the drive through. I use to think horrible thoughts about people who fed their kids lots of chicken nuggets, but now I am one of them.

Starfish became a grump (like clockwork) around 4:00 pm. Today I couldn't resist falling into his mood and am sorry to say I became a grump too. We celebrated Cameron & Thomas Woodard's birthday (they are brothers) and Ethan came along too. We had a good time over there but I was just so pooped from the day that I wasn't much fun. While rocking starfish in his room today I started thinking about when he gets his cast off and how it might be awhile before he walks again. Then I became sad. I started to think about how I will still have to hold him over toys to play with them or position him on the ground, or how he prob won't be able to play with his new train set for still another few weeks. I know, I'm being a Debbie Downer. But today was just one of those days. So most days I am really excited about getting the cast off, but today I just got overwhelmed with how much life will not be "back to normal" even after the cast is off.

On the bright side, I have been really encouraged by people. My friend Kat (mini me) sent me some funny and really sweet cards that pretty much made my day, and other people have sent encouraging notes that have meant a lot. The other thing that made my day was finding out one of my friends was randomly proposed to. That is a story I wish I could share, but don't have the liberty to.

3 Days Left...but then what? not sure, but I do need to remember it will be different, and different is good. starfish will be de-starred. he will weigh much less, and we will have a glorious time giving him a bath. it will great.

I have some great pictures from Ethan playing the bongo drums (or djimba- I don't know how to spell that) at the Woodards tonight and wearing a bread basket on his head that are pretty funny, but I have to get them from Alice's camera, so they will be posted soon.

Thankful for:
the new yogurt with strawberries & granola that Chickfila sells & I buy, a husband with a good attitude about life & trials, a son who is super cute & precious to me, and Alice's brownies that make your teeth feel like they are rotting as you eat them because they are so rich, sweet, and delicious!


Final thoughts:
I was about to post some pictures for today, but jared and I ended up watching a spica cast being removed on YouTube. That was traumatic for me, so please pray for us on Tuesday. The doctor has to use a loud saw up and down the body cast to remove it, and I felt like throwing up while I watched it. So prayers for Ethan as Tuesday approaches. Note to Self: don't look at too much stuff on the internet.